When God first put the idea homeschooling on my heart I admit I was scared stiff.
My one sided conversation with the Lord went something like this...
"Lord, you have the wrong mommy".
"Lord, I am NOT smart enough and I will fail my kids".
"Lord, surely this is not what you are asking me to do."
But God in His goodness patiently gave me the time I needed to get used to the idea. I tossed it around and around in my head, changing my mind daily... yet knowing all along it was indeed exactly what He was asking me to do.
For awhile, I did my best to ignore him... and yet over and over He would gently bring people and situations into my life making His will more and more clear.
Then I mentioned homeschooling in a blog post... you know, just to sort of put it out there... just to see if you all would tell me I was crazy. But instead I was overwhelmed with the support and encouragement I received. So many of you emailed and offered advice, told me what worked and didn't work for you, shared curriculum ideas and more. Seriously, you guys are THE BEST.
Yet, still... you were so far away in real life... somewhere out there in blog land (or Houston right Angel?) and while I was overwhelmed with the support- I was also overwhelmed with where to even start. I am one of those people who learn best by being shown and then DOING it. Seriously, I am not afraid to try anything if someone walks me through it the first time. It's just the way I am made.
So, I began to bargain with God...
And that conversation went something like this.... "Fine Lord, I will do it, but ONLY if you send me one friend close by who homeschools too."
I don't know why I ever doubt God. I don't know why I don't spend my days shouting His glory. He always, ALWAYS provides- even when we don't deserve it.
Today I was invited to this playgroup full of AMAZINGLY COOL moms who all had absolutely adorable and sweet kids. Many were adoptive moms, all were living their life for the Lord. And yes, you guessed it- most of them homeschool. :0) Seriously, why do I ever question His goodness? Just being around these crazy cool, Jesus loving moms was more than I could have asked for. God is so good like that- and I am blessed.